What does it mean to DREAM?
- Cheska- Monica
- Oct 10, 2013
- 3 min read
by Cheska
Each and everyone of us have that childhood dream that we oath to achieve as we grow up, but not everything will go according to plan most of the time. There are setbacks and struggles that we have to conquer in every step, just when we thought we are near to achieving that dream, reality will once again steal our hope like a mischievous thief in broad daylight.
I have my own fair experience of setbacks and disappointments just like each and everyone of you, as I also dared to dream. When I was younger I had many aspirations in life, for a moment I wanted to be a teacher because my parents bought me a blackboard and I started writing on it while giving my imaginary class a lesson. Then again, I realized I do not have the patience that made a teacher admirable especially when it comes to standing in front of the class for an hour or more. Which made me consider another future that did not require long hours of standing but yet enabled me to teach everyone a lesson, and that is by becoming a lawyer. As a child I also admired superheroes but for me lawyers are just as admirable as Superman, Batman and even Powerpuffgirls, as they bring justice to the world. But that dream was like a puppy love, I loved it but I eventually outgrew it.
The last dream that I had, as a child was probably the turning point of my life back then. It was the transition of that little girl to a young lady who was ready to live up the life that she believed was destined for her, and that is to save people’s lives by becoming a doctor. I can still remember the first time I realized that I wanted to be that life saver in a white gown, I proudly said in class through a poem the lines “A lot of people said they want to be a doctor, but dreaming and doing it is a different thing”. From that moment on, the oath was said, the dream was made and the path was paved.
When I slowly planned my future, I was naïve enough to think that everything will be easy and that my plans were perfect. What plan you may ask, well it was actually simple, to study and to study and to study and to study until I make to medicine school and eventually through the licensure examinations. But little did I know, everything has to change as we had to migrate to a foreign country where merit is everything and studying is a ‘JOB’, that has to be taken seriously. That was when I begun to question myself if it was worth the effort and the risk, if this dream was just a juvenile first love or was it a true love.
The thought of not becoming a doctor dawned on me countless of times, and it broke my heart twice as much every single time. Although I tried to deny it, but if it was first love, then I am a living example of the metaphor ‘First lover never dies’ and if it was true love, then it will last forever. That was when I realized this desired career was more than a dream, as it already became part of me.
If you are wondering if I eventually reached that dream, well it is still too early to say, I did. But it is never too late to say I will, eventually. I am now in the midst of my journey and after taking different routes and some detours, here I am on the road once again and continuously paving my path towards medicine school. It might not be this year or next year or even the year after that, but I will get there. Another ten years of waiting to save people’s lives is nothing compared to the many years that I will be able help them.
Yes, I am just like you. I grew up with a dream, I struggled, I questioned my capabilities more than I can remember, but I never stopped dreaming because I have faith, it is trusting and believing in something that you cannot see but you know it exists.
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